It's hard to even start this post because I'm not sure what I want to say. Our wonderful neighbor's son committed suicide. They are amazing parents and grandparents, I teach their grandson piano lessons, we served with them while they were ward mission leaders, they try very hard to live not just the letter of the law but the spirit of it, they are active and hard workers, and like all parents... they take great pride in what their kids accomplish. I often see Bobbie in my head as a beautiful young mom with her large passel of children... because I envy her patience and her ability to teach in situations where I feel like I'd be too busy or angry.
A couple of days ago I saw some policemen going to their door... today I found out that is was because of their son. They are older, all of their children are grown and gone from home... I'm pretty sure that all of them are married and I know that their one son that was married later in life just had his first baby (I think he's 35). So when I think about one of their sons taking his own life I'm incredibly heart broken and a little surprised that I'm mad at him (how could anyone be selfish enough to think that suicide is ever an answer to anything). I think of the love I have for my Sammy and that, heaven forbid, this could be us in 20-40 years. How would it feel to have a grown son that you loved and cared for break your heart? No one is immune to death in their family, that is where I'm so grateful to understand at least that much about the Atonement... but how would you feel if it were your son, your daughter, your husband, a parent intentionally took themselves out of your life? How would it feel to have someone that you treasure more than any earthly thing make the decision to kill themselves? (To me it almost feels worse because he was a grown man. A teenager is stupid, emotional and selfish. An adult should have learned how to control most of that and is more responsible in many ways.)
Even though I know you don't even know that I have a blog, I love you neighbors and my heart goes out to you.
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there is woman in our ward in Wichita who tried to commit suicide. She was found unconcious in her car after drinking weed poison?? by her husband. She is married and has 3 beautiful, smart daughters. I know about this because of the calling that I had. I had a really hard time not feeling angry at her selfishness. Fortunately she lived, but I wonder what her girls will think and how it will affect them in the future. I am sorry your neighbor. Such a hard road. I will pray for them.
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